My family and I have been in our new home for approximately 2 weeks now. It has been a hectic 2 weeks, but that is ok. Between teaching meetings, starting school, getting my classroom in order, preparing for class, and unpacking at home (little by little), we have been busy little bees. But, I sure can’t complain. Even with all the chaos, I love my new home and job.
But, with change comes adjustment. And, when you have OCD, the adjustment can be a little much. People that do not have the disorder may not completely understand what I am talking about. Remember, my OCD issues revolve around order, sequence, checking, and rechecking.
Turning Off/Unplugging Electronics Before Leaving the House
Oh my goodness! Out of all the issues I am discussing today, this one has to be the one that gets on my nerves the most, but I can’t help it. Due to the newness of my home, I do not have a routine set for turning off/unplugging electronics. So, I have to check and recheck them several times to make sure they are certainly off/unplugged. I may look at an outlet once and see that nothing is plugged into it, but something in my brain tells me to check it again… and, again… and, again… until I mentally accept it.
I am always scared that I am going to leave something on and come home to a burnt down house. I worry about it, too!
In the beginning, I had this great plan. I was going to stack all of the boxes up in the garage and slowly open a box and unpack it at a time. Then, reality hit! There was so much chaos going on at one time that my plan went out the window quickly. The homeowners were moving out and we were moving in all at the same time. So, the guys helping us just placed the boxes where there was room.
After everything was moved, I looked around and saw nothing but boxes. I didn’t know where to begin and the boxes are still overwhelming to me. Sometimes, it is almost like I can’t breathe and it makes me upset. I feel my aniety about to spill over and I want to scream. Remember, order and sequence are a must!
I am trying to tell myself that I can’t get it all done in one day, even though I think I should be able to. Everyday, I try to spend an hour putting stuff up or unpacking boxes. If I give myself a daily goal, it helps.
Halfway Doing Everything
This one goes along with the boxes everywhere issue. I can’t stand to halfway do things, and that is ALL I have been doing lately. Every room in my house is halfway put together because we are gradually going through boxes. If one room wasn’t fulling put together, I could accept that. But, having every… single… room look like an unorganized mess, really gets to me.
Being OCD and feeling rushed do not go together! If I feel even a tad bit rushed, I get major anxiety. I do not think my family fully understands this issue. I don’t want to disappoint anyone by being late, so it upsets me.
Plus, when I feel rushed, I don’t feel I have the proper amount of time to check things in the house before leaving or to make sure I didn’t forget anything important.
And, it makes me sweat, which isn’t cool first thing in the morning.
Feeling Like a Jumbled Mess
My brain seems to be running nonstop all day long, so I don’t have time to stop and process anything. I constantly feel like I am forgetting things, which is a horrible feeling to me. I like a schedule and routine! So, my mind will feel much better once everything gets put into place, physically, mentally, psychologically, and emotionally.
I have been very blessed and trying to take everything in stride. I know there will be growing pains until we adjust to everything, but it can be difficult when you are OCD. So, if you have every felt this way about a sudden change, please know that you are not alone. This chick has struggles too!