I haven’t updated y’all in awhile on our move. I dropped the ball almost two weeks ago and kinda left y’all hanging. Well, I am going to catch y’all up today.
Let me just say that my world has been turned upside down and sometimes, me and my OCD have a hard time handling it. Every case of OCD is different! Let me state that just because someone likes to have a clean house does not mean they have OCD. I think sometimes people connect clean with OCD. You can be the messiest person around and have OCD. It just all depends on the kind of OCD you have.
Well, one part of my OCD deals with patterns, sequence, and order. For example, I like all of my books to face the same way. If I place books on a shelf, they must go tallest to shortest. If not, it drives my brain insane.
Before I go into explaining, let me just show you a picture…
Yep! That is driving me and my OCD INSANE! Nothing is organized and there isn’t any symmetry at all. In a nutshell, moving and OCD do not mix.
I have my highs and my lows, and I never know what type of day it is going to be until my feet hit the floor in the morning. Some days, I can walk into the living room and the boxes don’t annoy me as bad and then, other days, I want to chunk them outside.
Change is hard for me too, especially all at once. I like to gradually work into change, not do a complete 180 quickly. So, having this life-change happen within a month has got my brain working overtime. And, I am not used to that. I am not just changing jobs, but having to sell my home. The first home that my husband and I built and bought together. The home I thought I was going to live in until I died. The home I would pick up and move with me if I could. The home that helped build this blog. All of that is hard for me to swallow.
At the moment, we are in the process of selling this home of mine. I have been so worried about putting my home out there for people to see and hopefully want to buy that I haven’t had time to stop and grieve over it. I am afraid before this is all said and done, I may have a mental and emotional breakdown.
Some of you may be saying, “Grieve over a home?” Yes! You can live in a house, but not feel like it is home. Well, this house is my home and we have put our heart and soul into adding to it’s appeal. Plus, we have many special memories that are attached to this home.
With that being said, we hope we find someone that wants to buy it that will love it as much as we do.
So, where are we with the moving process?
I am going to give you a rundown on every aspect…
Well, you have seen my boxes. I am gradually packing! It is taking a little longer than anticipated because I am deciding if I really need something or if I can let it go. Plus, I am packing as I find boxes, newspaper, and supplies.
I will have an entire post devoted to packing on my August 7th post that I will be sharing on Laura’s blog, I’m An Organizing Junkie.
Here is a funny for you: My mom is probably the individual that blessed me with the OCD. Her OCD deals with organization and order too, but I think mine is a little more extensive and branches into more areas than hers. So, when she saw my house for the first time with the boxes, she kindly told me that I am not going to sell my home with the boxes everywhere. She can’t stand it either! And, she is probably right, but I can’t wait until the Uhaul is sitting out front to pack.
Finding a Home in Paragould
After looking on the Internet for over a month (remember, my husband was up for the head coaching position and didn’t get it), I met with a real estate agent and toured some houses.
When I walk into a house, I want to get “that feeling.” I can’t really describe it, but I feel when I walk in the door, I will know if it is “the one.” You know, the feeling that you are home. I guess you could say I am looking for a sense of relaxation and comfort.
I want to find a home that I can move into and not move again for a long time. This move is wearing on my kids and I sure don’t want to put them through moving again in the near future.
While driving around Paragould with my stepdad (he has been Nathan’s fill-in because Nathan is at football a lot now), we found a home that I loved with a For Sale by Owner sign in the yard. I wrote down the information and Nathan called. It turns out they are in a very similar situation to ours and they are willing to rent the house to us until ours sells. That is called God’s work right there.
We went and looked at the house last Thursday and I must say, I felt like I was home the minute I walked through the door. So, we are hoping everything works out and we are able to move into this beautiful home. I will keep you updated. And, you know, whatever house we move into, y’all will get an up-close and personal look at every room and the changes we make.
And, did I mention that the home is in the center of all of us? How? Well, Nathan works on one end of town, Kate and I will be at another end, and then, Derrick’s daycare is a different way. Well, the house is in the center of all of our paths. I am pretty pumped about that! So, we are hoping the rug doesn’t get ripped out from under us. We will just pray!
This was by far my #1 priority, even before selling our home and moving to a new one. Mrs. Ellen, the lady that watches Derrick and Kate, can not be replaced. She has helped me raise my kids! Kate and Derrick love her and she loves them. So, I knew this was going to be my biggest challenge.
Thanks to the wonderful people at Greene County Tech school district, we now have a daycare. And, Derrick will be at a home daycare like he is accustomed to. We went and let the kids meet Mrs. Shelly last Thursday and they loved her. Kate even made the comment that she wished she could go to that daycare. Kate will be in kindergarten all day starting in August, so this will be her first year not going to daycare.
We have been truly blessed with all of the wonderful people we have met so far. They have went out of their way to help us and we are truly grateful.
We went to Kate’s new school about two weeks ago and got her registered for kindergarten. We even got to meet the principal! She will find out on August 12th at Open House about her teacher and all her schooling details.
Since we will be switching states, Nathan and I have to go through the whole reciprocity process. Arkansas has a lot more paperwork than Missouri filled with classes we have to complete online and everything. I think I mailed my last set of information today. Now, we just have to get Nathan’s finished.
My Emotional State
Hmmm… It varies day to day. Some days I wake up excited and anxious to get this show on the road. Then, other days, I wake up and I am depressed and sad. And, it can honestly jump from one state to the other pretty quickly. I am sad to be leaving my hometown, home, family, students, friends, daycare, and all of the known things. You know, routine gives you a sense of comfort and peace. Or, it does for me. I am excited about this new adventure, all the blog posts I will have because of this move, the opportunities that could lie ahead, Kate’s new school, Derrick’s new daycare, my new job, and of course, Nathan’s.
I actually feel like I am on an emotional rollercoaster! If you have ever made a life-changing move, then you understand me completely. I can go from happy and excited to depressed and crying within seconds. I know it is all part of the process, but I wasn’t expecting it all.
I take one day at a time and I am trying my best to roll with the punches, which can be kinda hard for me and my OCD.
I will keep y’all posted on every single change that is made during this whole process.
Thanks for all of the love and support! XOXO